Where do I begin?! I never imagined this, I spoke about this once before in my past blogs “child of God hold on to your faith.” If you haven’t checked it out you should. I can’t remember how many days exactly, but I remember just laying there not wanting to get out of bed barring my head into a pillow and reaching out to God and asking him to take me. It was a prayer I prayed consistently on. How backwards was I !? I was Asking him to take me and not help me. I realize this now I was asking him for the wrong thing. The lord is so good y’all. He didn’t give me what I wanted he gave me what I needed. I wanted him to take me I really did. I didn’t feel any sense of purpose. I asked him to take me especially before my father because I couldn’t imagine life without him. My mom left and she disappeared for quiet sometime. I was just a teen and I fell hard I didn’t want to get up at all. I stopped caring for myself I even neglected to take care of myself with even the smallest of things like brushing my teeth daily, my hygiene was poor, I just thought why should I care? who cares anyway!?! It’s crazy to write this out and say it out loud because that’s when it becomes more evident. I really was in a dark place. My father did the best he could as a single father and he had a great support system. Right now with so much bad going on I just want to reach out to those who may need to hear this who can relate and are struggling deep down inside. If you suffer from abandonment issues, depression, anxiety I can help you, he can help you. Please Don’t give up on yourself. When I wanted God to take me at such a young age I didn’t realize all that he had in store for me. I didn’t realize it at all. Here I am today 35! I have two beautiful children and a amazing husband. I really need you to take care of yourself, because I’m here to tell you he didn’t bring you this far to just bring you this far, he has something great in store for you! Depression, anxiety I understand it. Don’t turn to drugs or alcohol to fill that void your better than that, and if you haven’t heard it before I want to tell you again you are better than that! I’ve been there if you ever need anyone I’m here! message me, reach out to me, I’m here. I just need you to show up, show up for yourself everyday, dry your tears as hard as it may be and know you are not alone❤️🙏.
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